Fextinha

de Patrick DJ

Dear Lord, I thank you for my Brother Chris
I ask you watch over him
Your protector
I ask you continue to show yourself strong
God let you have a plan
I know this journey may look different than everybody else's
God asks you continue to make him sure of it
Continue to protect him as he enters into these rooms and these spaces
In Jesus' name, I pray to Lord and God, and I thank you
And I praise you
Amen

Can't even act like I'm good 'cause I just got a call from my dawg that our homie just died
Lowkey won't even cry
Bank account not good enough to get back home if I tried
All my bread spent on rent
I feel so fucking tired
Move to LA with the hope of success, but I still haven't seen a return on investment
Most of my friends getting married and here I am married to dreams till I'm breathless
Giving up ain't a scene I've accepted
Fuck

Feet don't fail me now
I came too far to go back home
So damn close to win
I feel it leaking thru my bones
I hope somebody still praying for me
Hope someone praying for me

Hoping that someday my ex might forgive me for breaking it off in attempt to be selfish
Truth is, I'm high key ashamed of it
My love for this goal overpowered the love that enwrapped our relationship
Paramore songs leave me triggered
Part of me knows she was hurt, but the hurt of regret in my soul'd have been bigger
I use to fear that I’ll die unfulfilled tryna please everybody instead
Now I just fear that I'll end up alone on the day that I'm actually dead
Steep price to pay, but I'm willing to pay it's what worth
If it means evolution and taking the reigns off whole generational curse, I promise I'm down
Label just pushed back the project and most days I feel like I'm losing my confidence
Tours going out and the skipping my name for the bill 'cause I'm lacking accomplishments
Someday I feel like I failed when I start to reflect
Voices of granny still cheering me on is the reason I still haven't checked
Just gotta call from Gabe
He want me to link up with Kai and rap for the stream
Part of me scared 'cause deep down I know if I choke I probably just pack up the dream
Last chance to make it I might as well jump from the cliff
Either you learn how to fly under pressure or end up submerged in what it's

Feet don't fail me now
I came too far to go back home
So damn close to win
I feel it leaking thru my bones
I hope somebody still praying for me
Hope someone praying for me